ugh-another day

ok so today i am going to start by i need a new job-who doesn't though right? i work at kohls in warner robins. i am the mens lead in the store and it is pure hell. there are a few upsides-such as the handfull of people that i love and adore there. and everyday i feel like that handfull gets smaller and smaller. for instance i just found out someone i consider a close friend just spilt the beans to our store manager about who called corporate on her and made a corportae HR lady come down to talk to people, and not only that but straight up told her all the questions that were asked. this a girl who is mentally unstable and who will fold to anyone no matter if its throwing her friends under the bust to get ahead. and maybe it has taken this to get the point across but i got it. ugh...what a little bitch. she can talk for days about how she hates her and tell the corporate lady everything under the sun but turns around and sticks her head up the managers ass? wtf??!!

so i knew today was going to be a long day at work-it ended up being not as long but more frustratin then anything so i wanted myt makeup to be somewhat simple and some pretty pink...i love the color pink but just dont wear it often-maybe because the pinks i have are so bright that im kinda frightened to use them. so it doesnt end up like i wanted it to.


my feeling for the day?? im gonna go with happy/angry. i like to make up my own feelings. i try anyways. so happy/angry? its like i really am angry but am trying hard to be happy whether its just tryin to convince myself that i am not angry that i am happy i dunno?

i think i need to dig deep and find what really makes me happy. but that is hard. people, love, laughter-that makes me happy, but it is love that makes me angry and people that make me so frustrated. ugh im gonna have to come back to this blog bc i am so distracted by my thoughts and i am tired. so this is to be continued.....